The Power of Presence is the Power of Connection

Every time we BREATHE with intention and shift our focus from the Ego's busy workings to the calm and quiet of the Observer state, new doors open to us. Doors of opportunity, of beauty, of joy, of grace appear out of no where because we have the power of presence on our side.

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When we breathe and pause in the present moment to connect to the Observer part of our consciousness, we step into a time that is not a time and a place that is not a place.

In the present, we are able to bridge the gap between the Ego and our Higher Selves and benefit from the insight and information of both.

New doors appear because our Higher Selves shed light on them and we are far enough removed from Ego's obsession with the past and future that we can see these doors as they open invitingly in the now.

All we have to do is breathe, focus on what we feel now, ask our Higher Selves for a little light and guidance and eagerly await the answer. Sometimes the answer is very quiet and sometimes it doesn’t come the instant you ask.

The guidance we receive from our Higher Selves can come in an infinite number of ways. It can come through a conversations we happen to overhear between two strangers, or a blog we are reading, a video we are watching, or a billboard that we drive by. It doesn’t have to come in full sentences either, a single word or object or experience can be a key that clicks into place and jump starts your brain’s amazing process of making connections between pieces of information you already possess and drawing the exact conclusions you need.

I like to think about being present like being in a classroom.

Let’s say you are in a class trying to learn a foreign language. There’s a lot depending on you learning this language and you sit down and immediately start thinking about all the times you tried and failed to learn languages before and projecting about all the things that might happen if you can’t learn it this time and before you know it the class is over and you didn’t even realize it had started.

The next day you go into the class you sit down and start to breathe, slow and deep. You quiet your Ego mind just enough that you can see and hear your teacher. You are still aware of your thoughts but you have stepped far enough back from them that you can observe them clearly and choose to focus on only the thoughts that help you learn. Being in this Observer state also gives you full access to all the knowledge of your teacher, who is there to give you all the information you need, as well as, all the resources in the room (including the other students in the room that starting walking through the door as soon as you decided to learn).

Sometimes, the only information your Higher Self gives you is that you need to wait or you need to continue to practice being the Observer and connecting to love and that the information you are seeking will come in perfect timing. This can be a little frustrating, but that is where the power of faith comes into play, which is the topic of a different post.

Sending all my love to you!

Ana

Productivity pressure and other mindset traps!

What is your biggest reason for putting off self-care?

Self-care being anything that balances out stress or hardship by allowing you to prioritize your health and well-being (physically, emotionally, energetically, spiritually, etc).

Is it not enough time?

In which case, can you be more specific? What is taking up your that time that is more productive than self care? Remember, self-care doesn’t need to happen all day every day. But if you feel overwhelmed, off balance, stressed or fatigued, you need to assess how much self-care (and what kinds of self care) is going to bring you back to equilibrium and health.

My mindset trap tends to be what I think of as Productivity Pressure. I had a habit of pushing aside self-care because I didn’t view it as productive. (I say “had” because I am actively focused on changing my perspective around this issue)

So here is where I needed to pause and ask myself a couple of questions…

1.       “What does productivity mean to me?”

2.       “Why is productivity more important to me then caring for my well-being?”

3.       “How can I shift my perspective to find balance between work and rest, productivity and self-care?”

Whatever your typical reason for not prioritizing your own health and happiness is, I invite you to question it. The answer may go a lot deeper than you might think.

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Momentary backstory: (It comes full circle, I promise!)

My older brother married the one true love of his life on Saturday and the whole weekend was EXTREMELY emotional for me. I was so happy for him and for his new wife and between Friday night and Saturday I cried a LOT of happy tears! Listening to the ceremony, the vows they made to each other, and the speeches and toasts about love that followed, really made me reflect on the love in my own life and how I am treating and respecting, and most of all receiving, that love.

What got to me most was the way they looked at each other. Each glance held excitement and pride, joy and relief, knowing and understanding, devotion and respect, and so many promises. I thought for a brief moment, I wish my husband looked at me like that and in the next moment, I knew… my husband DOES look at me like that, I just don’t let myself see it or bask in it in the same way that these beautiful newlyweds were basking in it.

As always, the question was “WHY?”.

The word that came to my mind first and stuck into my heart the most was PRIDE. I was not allowing myself to see the pride in my husband’s gaze because I wasn’t looking at myself with pride. That realization broke me open enough that I was able to study myself long and hard (and most of Sunday was devoted to me doing just that… and then going to bed at 7:30 to recover)

Somewhere inside, even after all the years of dedicated self-growth and healing work, I still believed that I hadn’t earned the right to be honored or to be looked at with pride. I still felt that I needed to work harder and longer, that I needed to earn more money or pile on more accomplishments; I needed to be MORE PRODUCTIVE to be proud of myself or to be deserving of anyone else’s pride.

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I put off self-care a lot of the time, because I pressured myself to be productive so that I could EARN LOVE from myself and others.

There is a difference between the things we KNOW to be true in our minds and the things that we FEEL to be true in our hearts and bodies.

I know on an intellectual level that I am a being made of love and that I am inherently deserving of love. Sometimes, I feel this truth in my body and when I do I feel wholly and fully myself, completely deserving of love and pride and respect. I know what this feels like and try to go back to that feeling and refocus myself into this truth as often as I can.

When I am putting this productivity pressure on myself to the extent that it is overwhelming my need for self-care, I know that older limiting thought patterns are taking over. Thought habits that are not based in love or in the highest truth of who I am.

I think that looking into WHY we put off our self-care, can give us a deeper look into what we believe about ourselves. When we take the time to ask questions and identify our limiting beliefs around self-care, we can work on shifting our perspective much more quickly, thereby saving ourselves from burnout, overwhelm and other forms of suffering.

Personally, I had to realize that, for me, the word “Productivity” was synonymous to “Earning Love” and that I when I am prioritizing the energy of “Productively Earning Love”, I am viewing my reality through the lens of the limiting belief that I am not inherently worthy of love. So, I need to shift that perspective and change my definition of productivity to something more healthy and balanced.

I am going to try defining Productivity as “actively sharing my love with others” and Self-Care as “Actively sharing love with myself”. Self-care is what allows me to be productive, because it allows me to fill my own cup so that I can share my gifts with others. This, to me, feels much more healthy and balanced.

Sometimes, it takes a wedding, or a big emotional upheaval or a time of being extremely off balance, to make us realize that something isn’t right and that something needs to change. When we get into the habit of questioning ourselves and the way we react to these times, we can shift our perspectives and step into the next day with much more balance and clarity and determination and pride.


I hope you take some self-care time to ask these big questions of yourself and get to know yourself at the subconscious level of limiting belief.

Productively sending my love to you!


Ana

Creating a road-map to your goal so you can always get back on track!

On Monday we talked about how to use your brain to list out your 2019 goals and then how to use your heart (emotions) and your physical body (sensations) to cross-reference those goals and to check to see if they are in alignment with love and your highest good.

When I was speaking on this topic, I had this question pop up in my head and I wanted to spend some time today addressing it. The question was,

“If I’m supposed to feel good to align with my higher self but I also need to feel uncomfortable in order to grow, how do I navigate that? How do I navigate between aligning with good feelings and allowing myself to get uncomfortable enough to grow?”

When we set a goal for growth that is for our highest good, and we practice saying that goal out loud and we notice how good it feels in our bodies, we create a road-map for ourselves that helps us get back to that feeling and to our goal. When you spend time saying that goal out loud and you often imagine what it will feel like to accomplish that goal and describe in detail how that feels in your body and you write it down, you create a new baseline for how you normally feel.

That new baseline for how you feel in your body (or even how you know you want to feel in your body) is going to give you a heightened sensitivity to the changes in your body, emotions and thoughts.  But you are still going to respond automatically from the subconscious to triggers in your environment.  

Don’t you worry about not feeling uncomfortable enough, my friend! As you move through your day to day life, working towards your goal, you are going to be challenged and those challenges are going to be uncomfortable. There are STILL going to be days when you get really down, or feel lonely, or stressed, or frustrated or doubtful. But you are going to notice those changes coming on more quickly and are going to be able to step back into the role of the questioner or observer more quickly as well, because you have practiced observing yourself.

You have also practiced allowing yourself the space for feel into that discomfort on a physical, emotional and mental level. Being in your body with the discomfort and allowing the energy to flow is going to allow that subconscious belief to be uncovered and recognized and identified. Now you get to decide what you are going to do about it and use the body baseline and cross-referencing technique to check and see how aligned your decision is.

Remember that the discomfort we feel occurs when we are looking through our life in that moment, through the lens of a belief that is not serving us and is not in alignment with our goals or highest good.

When we allow ourselves to feel into that discomfort and be in our bodies with our discomfort, that belief surfaces and it becomes clear enough that we can decide how to respond in a loving and aligned way. There does not need to be a forcing or a battle with ourselves. We do not need to get lost in judgment about ourselves.

But what happens when we do start to get a little lost? What can we do to remind ourselves about what we really want?

Okay, so I am not a huge fan of affirmations used for the sake of saying affirmations (especially if they are just said on a thought level and never felt), but I think that they can be applied usefully in this case. The key is to create the affirmation when you are inside of that feeling of alignment.

When you are feeling good. When you are working towards your goal or visualizing your goal and you are in that physical space, that physical feeling that you now know so well, of your goal and of your alignment, create an affirmation around what you are doing and why. One short sentence only.

This affirmation needs to feel like it is anchoring this feeling inside of you and allowing the feeling to elevate and intensify in your body when you say it out loud; It feels so right and so comforting and so encouraging.  This is the statement that you use to remind yourself when you are feeling lost.

Remember that whatever state you are in at the time, whatever belief lens you are looking through is going to affect how you feel when you make this statement, but part of you will always recognize it as truth. If you are feeling totally depressed and lost and in judgement about not achieving your goal and you say this affirmation, it will probably not immediately boost you back into your blissful buzz state of being. But…what it will do is help you set an intention to move back towards. For me, it gives me the strength I need to face what is happening OR just to say, “Today is what it is, but tomorrow I am going to start my day with this intention and focus on feeling it in my body.”

So, use the cross-referencing technique to set aligned goals, but also use it to align your day to day decisions when things get hard. Make that goal-based affirmation when you are fully in alignment and then use it as a reminder and to give you strength when times get tough (and growing into the person you want to become can be tough). Use the description of how your goal feels in your body and practice it as often as you can. Get into your body as often as you can and increase your awareness and sensitivity to what is going on, so you can catch yourself the moment you start move away from your alignment.

Best of luck with all of this my friends. Please always let me know how I can better support you and remember that your first call with me is always free, so we can chat about these tools and how they apply specifically to your life anytime! My goal is to walk this path with you and to support each-other along the way!

 

Sending my love to you as always,

Love,

Ana

Setting Goals With Self-Acceptance

Okay… hold on… WHY would I want to accept where I am while I’m trying to make new goals? Isn’t that counter-productive?


For some people today, modern goal setting can be a fairly stressful and dissatisfying process. It is very common to start off the new year by being either overly judgmental or overly optimistic when it comes to our current situation. When we cannot assess ourselves objectively, we tend to set goals based on what we “should” want, how we “should” feel and what we “should” be doing on a daily, weekly or monthly basis. We derive these “shoulds” by comparing our lives the the lives of people that we believe are more successful at life or happier than we are.

Often if we do complete a goal, we get that burst of energy, a short high. However, by the time we have reached our goal, we have already set the bar higher, we have already set more goals that are bigger and even more difficult to achieve. As soon as we lose that short high, we are back where we started, unsatisfied with where we are and beating ourselves up for not having reached the new bar yet.



So how do we prevent this cycle of dissatisfaction?


Self-acceptance, Self- love, self-forgiveness. These are skills that we need to be constantly working on so that we can…

  1. Accurately assess our current situation,

  2. Set goals that actually serve us, &

  3. Stay on the path towards our goals and maintain balance and satisfaction during the journey.


So, HOW can we fully accept ourselves and still have ambition and drive to achieve our goals?


First of all, we need to talk about the difference between acceptance and complacency.

Self-acceptance and ambition / motivation are not mutually exclusive. It is totally possible to accept and love who you are, where you are, all your strengths and all your weaknesses AND still be excited and motivated to grow and create positive change.

When you look at a newborn, you love and appreciate that baby AND are excited for the change and growth yet to come. You don’t get frustrated with a newborn for being fragile or for not walking or talking yet.

I think the main difficulty we all have with this concept of self-acceptance, is that we view ourselves as inherently different instead of inherently similar. We think that acceptance, forgiveness and love work differently when we apply them to ourselves versus when we apply the concepts to others. But if we can shift our perception of the underlying concept, we realize that it works the same way.

If we begin from the foundational concept that human beings are more similar than dissimilar, then self-acceptance, love and forgiveness become a lot easier to put into practice. If you can accept someone else for who they are AND be excited to see who they will grow to become, you can feel this and apply this to yourself. If you can forgive someone else, knowing that you can only control yourself and the forgiveness acts to heal you and make you more aligned, than you can extend that same forgiveness to the parts of you that are not currently in alignment. If you can love someone else, you can absolutely learn to love yourself (and grow your ability to love others in the process)

We just need to do away with this false belief that we are somehow harder to love, forgive and accept. All the limitations and hardship that we perceive around this concept are self-created. So let’s talk about…

The role of self-acceptance in conscious goal setting.


1. Self-acceptance allows us objectively and accurately assess where were are in this moment:

When we develop acceptance for who we are in this moment, we can view ourselves objectively. We can look at ourselves with compassion for where we are right now and see clearly the areas of our lives that could be improved, without blowing certain areas out of proportion, or skimming over some areas that are maybe uncomfortable to assess.

2. Self-acceptance allow us to set goals that are challenging yet achievable:

When we fully accept ourselves, we are less likely to compare our goals with other people’s goals or get into a competitive mindset and begin scaling our goals to greater and greater heights that are no longer reasonable. It is much easier to set goals that fit us and are uniquely geared towards our needs and desires, when we are not concerned with conforming with “shoulds” that are based on what other people will think of us or with what other people are doing.

3. Self-acceptance allows us to stay on our path towards achieving our goals:

Self-acceptance does not mean that we don’t feel the full human emotional spectrum (in fact it allows us to feel more deeply and fully) BUT it does go a long way towards mitigating the negative effects of the emotions that can cause us to give up on our goals. Frustration, doubt, disappointment, overwhelm, anxiety and just stress in general can cause us to go into this state of “War” with ourselves, because we often feel the need to fight against these emotions and “force” ourselves to achieve our goals.

Accepting that we are all human and allowed to experience the full range of emotions, allows us to adapt to the more dynamic and distraction parts of life and then get back on track with our goals. When we give emotions the space and time to express themselves as they come up, without judging them or rushing to feel something different, we can begin to address the root causes of those feelings as they become apparent or just allow them to pass through us without resistance so that we can start the next day fresh and get back on track.

It is important to be able to look at the larger picture and accept that there may be days where we need to adapt. There may be days where we need to rest, or go do something fun, or focus on a different goal, or go help someone else. These times do not necessarily detract from us achieving our goals in the long run. 

By allowing ourselves the heart-space to feel the highs of joy and success AND the lows of pain and disappointment, we can embrace the full range of our humanity and stay in balance. If we can stay balanced, we are much more likely to stick with the goals that truly serve us. It is when we fight ourselves, resist ourselves and get stuck in guilt and shame and all the “should” that we end up not consciously creating the changes we want to make.

 


Feel free to watch the FB LIVE video below. I had a little bit of a hard time getting my words out in a concise way, but I think I hit all the points eventually =)

Love you all, as always,

Ana

Sitting With Shame:

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Man has no Body distinct from his Soul for that called Body is a portion of Soul discerned by the five Senses 

~William Blake

 

We all go through periods of intense transition in our lives, deep valleys spanning between our mountains of accomplishment. When we are in these shadowed places it is easy to feel everything is going wrong and more intimately, as if WE are somehow wrong.

Let me briefly set the scene for my life right now. I am turning 30 in a few months.  My husband and I just moved out of the small RV that we have been living in for the past year and a half, into a set of rented rooms in a friend’s house while we work on constructing our dream home. My summer job at a local farm is coming to an end. Hours and income are dwindling, and I am trying to get a new business off the ground. 

Essentially, lots of shadowy transitions are happening and I could feel myself begin to panic as I checked on my bank accounts.  When we decided to move out of the RV and into our friend’s house for the winter, I had offered to take on the responsibility for rent, leaving my husband free to save up money for closing costs and upcoming construction loan payments.

I could feel that sinking, heavy weight in my abdomen and the tightening of my throat, as I started comparing the money in my account to the looming rent, student loans and credit card bills. I wasn’t going to be able to make it work, and knowing this felt like failure.

The truth of the situation is that my husband has a great career as a high school teacher, and as a married unit, we have plenty of money. I have a beautiful, loving relationship with my husband, we are not going to be homeless, there will be plenty of food on the table, and there is no reason for me to panic!

Despite knowing all this on an intellectual level, I found myself constantly sinking into this mentality of lack and not enough, because my personal bank accounts are low and I might have to…( *insert gasp*)… Ask For Help! I don’t have to ask a stranger or a distant relative I barely know. I don’t even have to ask my parents. I just have to ask my husband, who loves me and is always happy to give me what I need, for a little money for rent this month, and I was panicking.

The other funny thing is, this was not even the first time my husband has covered the rent. It’s not like we have completely separate finances, but for some reason all of these emotions were coming up for me full force. Just goes to show that emotions and limiting beliefs can surface at any time and be triggered by almost anything.

Despite my tendencies to get VERY stressed out, one thing I love about myself is that I am a beautiful mix of opposites. I am trained in the sciences and can be super logical and rational, and I fully believe in the value of scientific methodology. At the same time, I am also intuitive, extremely emotional and full of faith in the benevolent, helpful and magical nature of our universe.

When I am in extreme emotional discomfort, I tend to take advantage of all my resources to look deeply at the issue and try to figure out why I am experiencing those uncomfortable emotions. I go about my process of personal development like a scientist! Essentially, I use the scientific method to isolate the root of my emotions; I ask a question, formulate my hypothesis, test my hypothesis, record my observations, analyze my observations and use them to find a new question to ask.

However, instead of basing my personal development purely on quantifiable data, all of my inquiries are based on the faith I have in these concepts:

  • It is my true nature to be happy, and full of trust and love.

  • I am a connected part of a greater energetic whole; a divine spark in a divine universe.

  • I control my thoughts, which then shape my reality.

  • All the resources I need are available to me right now; I just have to be open to receiving them.

 

My personal development experiments are pretty much ongoing, but certain questions can take weeks or months to answer. In this case, my first question was “What is blocking my abundance right now and causing these feelings of panic and anxiety?”  

My first hypothesis was, “FEAR. I must be afraid. This must be my fear of ‘not having enough’ bubbling up for me.” To test this hypothesis I needed to become clear on what I was afraid of when it came to my financial situation.  And let me just say, the lists of fears and limiting beliefs filled up page after page in my journal. After the writing purge, I sat with each fear, saying it out loud, and paying close attention to my body, observing how I physically responded to each verbalized fear.  

The way our bodies physically respond to our thoughts, especially if we say them out loud, is SO COOL and provides really amazing data. Everyone’s bodies can do this, it just takes knowing where to place our focus and what to look for.

When I say something that I believe to be true or that I have identified with, I experience a physical reaction. If I say or think something I believe to be false, I won’t really feel anything.

But just because we “believe” something doesn’t make it TRUE. So how do we tell the difference between the negative or limiting beliefs we hold about ourselves, and the beliefs that align with who we truly are?

The answer to that question gives us a chance to realize how integrally linked our physical bodies are to our thoughts and emotions. When I say something or think something that I believe to be true and it is NOT in alignment with my true nature (someone who is happy and powerful and full of trust and love), I will feel an uncomfortable dissonant sensation of constriction or tightening or weight in my body. My stomach will sink or my throat will tighten, like it does when I am trying not to cry, or I may get stabbing pains in my chest, reminiscent of a panic attack.

Conversely, when I say or think something that I believe to be true that IS in alignment with who I am, I feel light and open and free. My body will noticeably relax or hum with a pleasant, resonant energy. This is the feeling people refer to when they say that something deeply “resonates” with them.

Going through my list of fears gave me a lot of good data, and my fears certainly felt relevant to the situation, but none of them felt like the root of the problem. None of my fears fully explained the reason why I was blocking abundance or why I was panicking over my bank accounts.

More importantly I wasn’t sure how to continue in a scientific manner. I didn’t know what question to ask next.

Feeling totally stumped and a little frustrated, I reached into my faith. I started taking a few minutes every day to open up and ask the universe for some clarity and guidance. I would get to work a few minutes early and sit in the car with my eyes closed and just start talking to the universe, stating my intentions in my mind; “Universe, I am open to guidance and clarity. Please help me resolve these feeling of panic around my finances. Help me open to receiving abundance in my life!”

There is so much truth in the statement, “Ask and you shall receive,” and as silly as it sounds, talking to the universe works for me every time!

Days after I started setting my intentions to be more open to guidance, my sister invited me to a workshop she was running all about the ways we block abundance and how we can allow more abundance into our lives. One of her talking points was titled “Avoiding Vulnerability”, and as soon as she said those words, a thought came to my mind and demanded my attention:

“If I ask for help, then any accomplishment I make thereafter is null and void. I didn’t do it and I can’t feel proud of the accomplishment if I accept help along the way.”

This thought felt like the metaphorical tap on the shoulder and I knew I had to immediately write it down. When I voiced this in the workshop, my sister said something along the lines of “Does the first place marathon runner not get a medal at the end of the race because she didn’t make her own shoes, or grow the food that she ate that morning? We are all inseparably interdependent and asking for help NEVER diminishes our accomplishments. In fact, you should be congratulated for taking the initiative and making the best use of your resources to accomplish your goals!”

 This was so wonderfully helpful to me! Not because it gave me the “end all, be all” answer to my initial question, but because it allowed me to see the next important question.

 “Why am I afraid to ask for help and tap into my resources when it comes to money?”

The answer didn’t come immediately.  There was no light bulb “AHA” moment. So I just continued my ritual of asking the universe for help and guidance each morning and continued to set my intentions to be more open to receiving help.

This time, the answer came through a podcast I was listening to at work. The idea hit me hard and true; I was ashamed.

Shame is an emotion that I normally try to ignore or distract myself from as soon as possible, but the subject of this particular podcast was all about sitting with your emotions and allowing yourself to feel them fully in your body. At this point, the financial panic wasn’t going away and I was uncomfortable enough with it to try anything that might help.

So I sat with my shame, on my friend’s front stoop after I got home from work that day. I sat with my shame and allowed the physical feeling of shame to fill my body. It was so intense! Slimy and heavy, the shame filled my gut and closed my throat and filled my eyes with tears. But it didn’t kill me! I may have felt overwhelming emotional pain, but it did no harm to my physical body to sit there and witness what shame really feels like.

The longer I sat there, the more thoughts came into my mind about why I felt so much shame around money, where that shame came from in the first place, why it was not based in truth and why it no longer resonated with who I truly am right now. Before I knew it more journal pages were covered in my hasty scrawl, records to be looked over and analyzed later, when I wasn’t feeling so raw.

Brene Brown defines shame as, “…the intensely painful feeling or experience of believing that we are flawed and therefore unworthy of love and belonging – something we’ve experienced, done, or failed to do makes us unworthy of connection.”

So why was I so full of shame around money?

I was full of shame because I had made an agreement with myself as a little girl that stated “I will never rely on anyone else, especially my spouse, for money. I will always be financially independent so that no one will ever be able to trap me in an abusive situation.” This pact was the armor that protected me from re-living my mother’s experience, and prevented me from making my mother’s mistakes. 

From an outside, objective standpoint, asking my husband to transfer a little money to me to help with rent this month is not a huge deal. However, from an interior, subconscious, emotional viewpoint, I was essentially breaking a solemn promise that I made to myself. Breaking this longstanding pact required that I take off my armor and be vulnerable with myself and with my husband in a whole new way. I would have to trust that this financial link between me and my husband would not lead to feeling trapped in an abusive situation in the future.

I gave myself the time to sit… and feel… and integrate the fullness of these realizations. As the knowledge of my past agreements came to the forefront of my mind, I was able to experience them fully and by observing my body’s reactions, I was able to discern that this agreement was no longer in alignment with my true nature.

Right now, I am a woman who trusts the universe and who trusts and loves her husband. I am a woman who has learned that her value is inherent and not based on the numbers in her bank account. I am a woman who is no longer served by this old agreement, and though it may have served me in past relationships, the time has come to let it go.

This experience was a huge opportunity for self acceptance and compassion. I was able to feel my shame and say to myself, “Even though I feel this shame, I truly and deeply love and accept myself.”

 I was able to think of my mother, who taught me the importance of financial independence because of her love for me and her fear for my future. Despite the pain and blockages brought on by those lessons, I have full compassion and gratitude for her.

I was able to have compassion for the fact that it was her personal experiences that instilled that fear and shame in her. I was able to forgive her for passing that shame onto me and I was able to forgive myself for accepting that shame into my experience.

This was it; within minutes of sitting down on the front stoop and holding that space for my shame, the compassion and forgiveness I felt spread back in time, encompassing my mother and grandmother and great-grandmothers, healing and soothing generations of pain and dis-empowerment.

The end result of sitting with my shame was a feeling of elation, compassion and loving oneness. It was totally worth the weeks of asking and experimenting and the temporary pain of allowing my body to fully feel. 

This all goes to show that the objective facts about our reality often have less sway on the way that we perceive the world than do the deep seeded beliefs and agreements that we hold within ourselves.  These pacts are linked to the information we picked up and stored subconsciously as children and the cycles of fear, shame and negativity that get passed down through the generations.

Breaking these cycles is possible! This incredibly important work is something that not only enriches the relationship we have with ourselves, but also the relationships we foster throughout our lives.

 This is why it is so important to be self-aware enough to end the shame and fear cycles, and release the agreements that no longer serve us. We need to allow ourselves to sit with the shame or fear or guilt or loneliness or heartache in order to prevent the cycle from continuing to the next stage of our lives and into the next generation.  

When we finally break free, we start to walk out of the shadows of transition and up the mountainside to our next great accomplishment.

 


 Hello Friends!

I know this was a lengthy one, but if you have a few minutes to comment, I would love to hear about what this blog brought up for you and any questions you might have!

Sending love as always,

Ana