The Gap: A love letter

 

Dear scared and frustrated self,

I know that right now you are in The Gap. That terrifying place between your current reality and your desired reality.  

You just jumped off that metaphorical cliff because your intuition dared you to and now you are free falling; hoping that the next ledge will be there to catch you. I know that you forcing yourself to smile and look on the bright side and stay grateful. I also know that deep down your chest hurts just thinking about the possibility of falling and shattering into a thousand pieces...again, of starting over from scratch...again. 

This is WONDERFUL!

I know that right now you are reading this thinking "This doesn't feel at all wonderful!" I know you are popping aspirin this morning because you have a headache from crying your eyes out last night. I know that you are scared and frustrated and that you feel like a failure, but this is the growing time. 

This is the time to realize that all your fears are nothing but dark corners of your mind that you have yet to shine light on. Remember, my dear, that...

only love is real.

This is the time for BIG changes and universal downloads and life changing realizations. This is the time in your life where you discover your Magic and you get to dream as big as you want. You already know that you create your own reality, now is the time to put it to the test. 

So journal and read inspiring books. Write down all the things that you could possibly want to do with  your life and put little hearts next to the ones that excite you the most. Write down pages and pages of all the things that you are grateful for. Decide HOW you want to feel in this new, exciting stage of your life and then practice feeling that way as if your perfect life already existed. Take some time every morning to fill all the corners of your being with light, and watch the fears dissipate like smoke. 

The amazing thing about you is that you have been in The Gap before. You have started from scratch and faced this fear of the unknown so many times now that you Know that you can get through this. You have proven that to yourself over and over again.  

This time is different though. This time is going to be 100x better than all those other Gaps because this time, you know that you create your own reality.

  • You know that you can choose to be happy at any time. 
  • You know that money is energy that flows easily and elegantly into your life when you need it. 
  • You know that you are inherently worthy and deserving of love and abundance and happiness because you exist, because you are!
  • You know that your life is full of love and abundance already, and it can only get better from here. 
  • You know that you are magical and beautiful and strong and resilient and full of love.
  • You know that you have unique and brilliant gifts to share with the world and there are a hundred different fun ways to share them. 

This is a time in your life when you have broken free of the situation that has been keeping you small and holding you back. You have made a difficult choice! You chose your own well being, growth and happiness over security and social convention. You have just shattered a glass ceiling and are now allowed to climb as high as you want in this world. 

Now, you get to create

your own definition of

Success! 

You are in the process on facing all your fears and removing all the blocks between you and greatness. You are going to have to work really hard to do that! You have been creating a seemingly impenetrable wall out of these negative limiting beliefs, falsehoods and fears for your entire life and now you are starting to break it down block by block. The awesome thing is that with every block you remove, you let a little more light in, a little more love in. It gets a little bit easier to see the cracks and weak spots in your wall and you just become happier and happier, more and more grateful until breaking down that wall is just that fun exciting thing you get to do everyday. 

I just want you to know that I love you and you are not alone. There are so many people who have been through this, who are in their own Gaps right now. You are loved by so many people, you can reach out and ask for help at any time.

You can do this! Not only can you do this, but you can actually have FUN doing this!

So time to start brainstorming and journaling and dreaming. Time to write down all of your fears one by one, and then all of the reasons that those fears are NOT TRUE. Time to start getting excited to grow and to love and nurture yourself as you do. 

Fill your being with light and love. Have faith that the universe has your back. Reach out for help when you need it and most of all, enjoy the process of growing closer to love every day!

Love, 

Your higher self.